9 Degrees of Separation

I’m staring at a giant monitor, my skull before me, at a sickening angle.

My chiropractor, Dr Imana, says,
I normally see this kind of deviation in whiplash patients.
You’re off by 9 degrees.

While I’m in shock at how misaligned my skull is from my neck, it is explaining why I’ve had such severe shoulder pain the last week.

But the word that is resonating like a tuning fork through my whole body, really makes the most sense….

Whiplash.

Dr. Imana looks at me with his caring eyes and says,
I also see this in my patients who have something really large happening in their life. So…what’s going on?

Oh……right…..this is making sense now.

 

What is your Creative Dream?
What is your Desired Vision?

Is it to:
Sell out Carnegie Hall
Be a NY Times Bestseller
Star on Broadway
Give a TED Talk
Have your Art Hang in the Metropolitan Museum
Win a Grammy

What drives your Process and feeds your Artistic Drive?

What is that vision, that if or when it comes true you will feel in your whole body and soul that you have ARRIVED?

We can spend so much time dreaming, and working, but what happens when it actually does come into our life?

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, Your playing small does not serve the world. As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people the permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
-Marianne Williamson

As Creatives, we can talk all we want about our Dreams, but when the spotlight is in front of us, how can we step in and actually be liberated? How do we fully make the impact we deeply desire?

It all comes down to one key element,

Alignment.

 

I look at Dr. Imana and smile,
I’m in love

And encapsulated in this is so many elements,
overcoming my fear of being hurt again
starting a new life partnership
moving out of my apartment

And ultimately forming a whole Creative life…one where I feel fulfilled in all areas.

All things I have been working towards, and wanting with my whole being, and here it is!

So, why was my neck so imbalanced?

Well…I’ve never been here before. 

The dream of Art that feeds me, work I love, a family and partnership that is deeply aligned with who I am as a woman today….this is all new.

At least, all of it together is new.
And it’s knocked me off my center.

Much like that roaring crowd waiting for you.

Are you aligned for the success you desire?

 

When I lay down for my adjustment, Dr Imana said,
I want you to think about this work as something we do together.  Place your attention on moving your skull center and open, center and open.

Once the adjustment was over, I felt as though a huge shift had occurred, and I was led to a dim room to relax with a guided meditation.  As soon as the headphones were placed on my ears, I began to cry.

Something was moving.

My neck was aligned, and now I could just freely flow.  My fear left my body, and I relaxed into the chair.

And a thought occurred to me,
This timing is perfect.

In order to welcome in all I desire, I need to be aligned for it.

My body had been sending me a clear message, and it was time to create new space; release the old fears, as they don’t serve me anymore.

Not for the life that is unfolding.

What about you?
What are you still holding on to?

 

So, how can you get aligned with your Dreams?

Take a moment right now, and grab a pen and paper.

Write down your Creative Vision, and then look at your actions towards them.  Take stock of your mindset, and your language. Look at your messaging, your collaborations, and habits.

Alignment: the proper adjustment of the components of a machine, circuit, etc., for coordinated functioning.

and

a state of agreement or cooperation among persons, groups, nations, etc., with a common cause or viewpoint.

We can so commonly get caught in believing we aren’t READY for success, but the answer may lie in whether or not we are ALIGNED.

This alignment begins WITHIN.

It begins with us, and then works it way out into our Art, and then connects with our audience.

Take a look at your paper, and see where the gaps are.

When we can release the judgment against ourselves, the answers come pretty easy.  And then the next step is just to ask for help.

I came to this new place with A LOT of help, and it was when I was willing to release the belief that I HAD to do it alone, that my business bloomed, and I was led to coaches and mentors and healers that have allowed me to create the life I want.

There’s been something holding you back for awhile, and today you have the opportunity to adjust.

Move Center and Open
Center and Open

Step into your light and align your life to SUPPORT that.

And then inspire your audience to do the same. Align with THEM, cooperate with what they need, and are clamoring for from you.

Align your Artistry with your Humanity, and your audience will follow suit.

This will create the deepest impact.

The success may feel like a whiplash, but it’s just the opportunity to create more space.

 

Who are you to be brilliant?
ALIGNED.

Standing Water

I’ve been sick for a while.

And I finally know why.

After weeks of coughing, losing my voice, having both a bacterial and viral infection, and experiencing fatigue and earaches, I have the answer.

And the crazy part is, I knew it all along.

So, why did it take me over a month to finally heal?

I can chalk it up to one thing,
Self Trust.

 

Have you ever had a nagging voice bringing up the same thing over and over again?
Have you found yourself in a repeating pattern and wanting to know why you can’t seem to break free?
Do you feel like a broken record, and yet are not seeing the results you want in your Art?

Turns out the answer may be something so simple, and right in front of you.

Want to know what it is?

It’s your Air Conditioner.

 

All of my problems began six weeks ago when I started running my air conditioner at night.  I’ve lived in this apt for four years and never had issues before, but started to have low energy, sore throat and earaches when I turned it on this season.

There was a lot going on in my life at the time, and when I lost my voice, I factored in the AC unit, but went into strategies and treating the symptoms.

I rested
I contacted my doctor
I drank tea
I steamed
I got acupuncture
I took antivirals

The list goes on and on, and while I would start to get better, the symptoms would return.

I went through every emotion in the book, frustrated, and practicing some serious self empathy.

How could I be doing SO much and STILL be dealing with the issue?

What was the DEAL??

But all along was this nagging voice….the one pointing towards my AC unit, humming along in my window.  I cleaned the filter, I cleaned the outside and wiped it fully down.

And then the AC unit started to make a weird noise….
CHUGACHUGACHUGACHUGGGAA

What the heck??

And as the weeks went on, and I was trying so many other things, I realized I wasn’t addressing the real issue.

Where the SOURCE of the problem was.

Until I looked inside…..

And I mean literally, inside the AC Unit.  And that’s when I saw it.

Standing water.

Who knows how long it had been there, but the answer was right there.  That feeling that had been in my gut for weeks was now confirmed.  The voice that had been nagging me about the unit was loud and clear.  It didn’t matter how much I cleaned the filter, because the issue was in the unit itself….and it was blowing whatever was growing in the water straight into my apt.

Straight into my lungs.

I called my landlord, and he bought a new AC Unit, and within 24 hours, my energy returned and my sore throat and earaches were gone.

It was that simple……and I knew it all along.  My BODY knew it all along.

The question was,
Was I willing to listen?
Was I willing to trust myself?

 

Take a moment, and check in.

What have you been saying to yourself time and time again?
When you look at where you are and where you want to be…what is in that gap?
What has been the piece you have been saying needs to change?

Where is your standing water?

Maybe it’s been:
I need to learn a new skill
I need a way to quiet my mind
I need to organize my studio
I need to focus on one thing at a time

Or maybe, there is something TOXIC that is growing in the standing water and a part of your environment, and has been calling out to you that it’s harming you.

Perhaps,
A partner who brings you down
Friends who shame you
A working environment that is literally unhealthy
Collaborators who don’t share your vision and cause you to compromise your Art again and again

When we take the moment to self connect, and stop judging the voices that are arising, we may find there is actual wisdom within.

We may find that the AC Unit is clearly saying,
LOOK INSIDE!

Because, we can’t change what we can’t see.

There has to be an awareness first, and then we can take action.

And in this case, the action is to begin true self trust so that you can create a life and work that nourishes you.

The answers truly lie within, and somewhere deep inside is that voice that has been crying out for you.

The voice that has been crying out for your brilliance, and all you have to share with your Talents and Gifts.

The voice that knows what you are capable of.
My journey went through infections, coughs, and fatigue to lead me back to the first instinct that arose six weeks ago. The instinct that was my truth and what would actually make a difference.
So, what is your truth?
This isn’t the time to judge and beat yourself up.

Sometimes we need to hit the wall again and again to finally trust ourselves.

When we can trust and tap into our inner wisdom, we can then become truly Unstoppable.

So, tune in, and listen.

What do you hear?

 

 

Image: Caitlin Cannon Photography