Stop the Scream

The Scream.

I walk through the open doorway, from the hot bursting sun, into a small room.  The cool air from the air conditioning is a welcome change from the mid 90’s sticky heat, and I feel my breath come more easily.

Then I see it.

To my right, the familiar image takes up the entire wall. This recreation is even 3D and sticks out in all directions, begging me to feel every emotion.

Shock
Pain
Surprise
Horror

And then I turn around and within an instant, the Scream fades away as I stand in front of another piece of art, one I’ve never seen before. A face, looking at me….no THROUGH me, as if to say,

Take a breath.
You are ok.

The tension washes free, as I smile in a deeper knowing. I walk back out into the sunshine, and look back at the sign above the entrance, reading:

The Chamber of Internal Dialogue.

That seems about right.

 

What is your inner dialogue?

What do you tell yourself in your Creative Process?
Do you find yourself wanting to just Scream?

And when the voices get so loud you can only clamp your hands over your ears, do you just stop or persevere?

Many times, the voices in our head are our own worst enemy, especially if they are constantly holding you back and saying,

Nobody cares about your Art
This isn’t good enough to show
No one will pay for your work
You’re a fraud, not a real Artist

That’s enough to make ANYONE scream!  And ultimately, cause you to stop doing what you love, or just find yourself starting a LOT of projects but never complete.

Sound familiar?

Thankfully, there is an answer. And it’s something you can access at any time, at any moment, and never leaves you.  It’s with you right now, as you are reading this.

 

Last weekend, I experienced the magic of Grounds For Sculpture in Hamilton, NJ.

“Grounds For Sculpture is a 42-acre sculpture park, museum, and arboretum founded on the site of the former New Jersey State Fairgrounds. Opened to the public in 1992, it has rapidly become one of the premier cultural destinations in New Jersey, welcoming and enchanting nearly 2.1 million visitors since then. Founded by artist and philanthropist Seward Johnson, the nonprofit Grounds For Sculpture presents and conserves an exceptional collection of contemporary sculpture, offers outstanding programming for all ages, and provides seasonally rotating exhibitions in six indoor galleries.”

I was like a kid on the most amazing playground, taking in each artwork, posing for fun pictures, and loving the variety and scope.  I was in heaven.

My curiosity was especially peaked when I saw a small white hut with a huge recreation of The Scream on the outside wall. But it was the title of the work that really brought me through the open door, The Chamber of Internal Dialogue.

Inside the Scream rose on the right, and I found myself remembering so many moments I wanted to just open my mouth and cry out.

Being cut from a Broadway audition
Falling in dance class
Forgetting my lines in a performance

And then, in 2013,

Losing my home
Going through a divorce
Getting in two car accidents in one day…..

In those moments, I felt like I was failing, and the voices in my head felt like they were pulling me even further down.  I wanted to curl up in a ball and just yell to the world,

STOP!!

But, the thing that had been missing in my life, came into clear focus in 2013.  In the past, I would have just Screamed, thrown my anger and spiraled even more in blame…but now, I had access to what would turn my whole life and Art around.

My breath.

For the first time in my life, I had tools around grounding, around how to come within in the face of disappointment and pain.  And the vehicle for that was always there….it was my breath.

Take a moment, and check in. We can so easily rush through our day and forget this simple tool.  When we get upset, anxiety rises and our breathing becomes shallow.  Then our heart rate raises, and everything goes straight up into our heads.

We are trying to THINK our way out of our experience, and this just creates more anxiety and frustration.  The answer and antidote to this elevated state is to take a moment to ground back in.

How do you do that?

By connecting to your breath.

Close your eyes, place your hand on your belly, and place your attention on your breath.  Allow your belly to soften and fill your hand with your inhale.  Count to ten.

With each breath, allow the space between your breaths to lengthen.

By doing this, you are dropping from your thinking mind which has high-jacked your sense of safety, and come back home.  Home to who you are, not what is happening to you.

Yes, we will all have challenges in our Creative Lives, but the real spiral comes when we identify with the challenge, instead of creating some perspective.

You are not your challenges.

The biggest gift your breath gives you?
SPACE.

It’s in the space, you can take a moment and actually question whether that inner dialogue is true.  In most cases, it’s really just your fear talking.

And when we can ground back down, the urge to Scream leaves us, we remember who we are, and can get back to the work we WANT to be doing, living through our passion, and creating Art that has an impact.

So, place your hand on your belly, close your eyes, and breathe……

How do you feel now? 

 

Having a daily practice to connect with my breath allowed me to move through the worst year of my life, transform my performance, and give me the courage to launch my own business.

And most importantly, it’s brought love back into my life.  You see, going to the Grounds for Sculpture wasn’t my idea…it was my partner’s, and sharing the day with him was a dream come true…..one that I have been looking forward to for four years.

 

Inside the Chamber of Inner Dialogue, on the opposite wall was a open and peaceful face, with fingers raised in a mudra. Like the Scream, it also was 3D, emerging forward and begging me to feel every emotion.

When I viewed this, I remembered my breath.
I remembered who I am.
And I stopped screaming…..

You can too, right now, and at any moment.

Inspiration: Your Most Important Creative Tool!

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Most Creatives, even those who diligently focus their attention on marketing and selling their
talent are missing the most important tool that is present in every successful creative endeavor.

That tool is Inspiration.

When you are inspired you are open and ready to receive. Ideas and creativity flow and issues are easily solved. New plans are able to be followed with enthusiasm and you move forward in your life with the greatest of ease.

Is this your experience?

For most Creative people it is not. While almost every Creative I’ve met got into the business because they love their craft, many report that somewhere in the process of being in “the business “ they lost the spark.

Have you?

After 30 +years counseling Creatives I can report with great confidence that when Talent has activated their intuitive senses and has 24/7 access to inspiration they benefit creatively, professionally, financially and personally.

This translates into :
 * Frequently and painlessly creating new ways of expressing your creativity
 * Successfully collaborating creatively with clients and partners on creative projects
 * Happily and easily marketing and consistently putting your work forward
 * Painlessly solving issues with grace and ease
 * Pricing and negotiating fees that serve all

Most creative people currently experience “moments” of inspiration.  They have times while shooting,acting dancing writing when they are” in the zone”, a place where time stops still and they feel supremely present.

These moments while wonderful, are only the tip of the iceberg, as they happened randomly, not through active choice and effort.

When you choose to live an inspired life you are connected to higher source energy. This is the frequency that you’ve been visiting during your moments in the zone, or times of connection during an artistic moment where flashes of brilliance occur.

This energy field can be brought into all aspects of your life.  This is tool that everyone has, yet few are accessing!

Energy? Frequency? I’m not talking religion here. Science and medicine long ago confirmed that we are energetic beings.

When you have an An EEG it measures the frequency in your brain. An EKG measures the energy in your heart.

Clearly we are energetic beings!

When you live an inspired life, you are choosing to consciously and deliberately open to and
activate the high-frequency energy field that until now you have only been visiting.  Choosing to live in the higher vibration of inspiration gives you access beyond your thoughts.

Make on mistake about it. Creativity is not an act of the brain, (neuro science has reported that
the brain can only recognize that which it already knows and ideas are  “new discoveries”).
Creativity  is a result of you opening and providing a receptive place for ideas to land.

This is not rocket science but it’s not easy work. You will need to get past old beliefs and then you will have to create new steps in order to leave habits and patterns that no longer serve behind.

You will need to create quiet in your life, times when you will be able to connect to your higher wisdom.  For many creative people choosing to go here outside of the creative experience itself, is very new.

To get you started  I’m inviting you to access as my gift, a guided meditation that will take you to a place where inspiration lives. Go here and download your gift now.

Golden Light Meditation

If you have any doubt at all that Inspiration, your most powerful tool is within you, waiting to be  accessed,  think about the term itself.

The words In Spirit A Ton reside within!

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/ Selina Maitreya is an internationally celebrated lecturer, author and teacher of Practical Spirituality.
Practical Spirituality is a transformational
teaching that utilizes one’s daly life as the practice pad for increased consciousness and connection to higher wisdom.
Students of Practical Spirituality learn how to identify and access their high frequency 24/7 living lives that are based in true abundance and peace.

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