I’ve been sick for a while.
And I finally know why.
After weeks of coughing, losing my voice, having both a bacterial and viral infection, and experiencing fatigue and earaches, I have the answer.
And the crazy part is, I knew it all along.
So, why did it take me over a month to finally heal?
I can chalk it up to one thing,
Have you ever had a nagging voice bringing up the same thing over and over again?
Have you found yourself in a repeating pattern and wanting to know why you can’t seem to break free?
Do you feel like a broken record, and yet are not seeing the results you want in your Art?
Turns out the answer may be something so simple, and right in front of you.
Want to know what it is?
It’s your Air Conditioner.
All of my problems began six weeks ago when I started running my air conditioner at night. I’ve lived in this apt for four years and never had issues before, but started to have low energy, sore throat and earaches when I turned it on this season.
There was a lot going on in my life at the time, and when I lost my voice, I factored in the AC unit, but went into strategies and treating the symptoms.
I contacted my doctor
I drank tea
I got acupuncture
I took antivirals
The list goes on and on, and while I would start to get better, the symptoms would return.
I went through every emotion in the book, frustrated, and practicing some serious self empathy.
How could I be doing SO much and STILL be dealing with the issue?
What was the DEAL??
But all along was this nagging voice….the one pointing towards my AC unit, humming along in my window. I cleaned the filter, I cleaned the outside and wiped it fully down.
And then the AC unit started to make a weird noise….
What the heck??
And as the weeks went on, and I was trying so many other things, I realized I wasn’t addressing the real issue.
Where the SOURCE of the problem was.
Until I looked inside…..
And I mean literally, inside the AC Unit. And that’s when I saw it.
Who knows how long it had been there, but the answer was right there. That feeling that had been in my gut for weeks was now confirmed. The voice that had been nagging me about the unit was loud and clear. It didn’t matter how much I cleaned the filter, because the issue was in the unit itself….and it was blowing whatever was growing in the water straight into my apt.
Straight into my lungs.
I called my landlord, and he bought a new AC Unit, and within 24 hours, my energy returned and my sore throat and earaches were gone.
It was that simple……and I knew it all along. My BODY knew it all along.
The question was,
Was I willing to listen?
Was I willing to trust myself?
Take a moment, and check in.
What have you been saying to yourself time and time again?
When you look at where you are and where you want to be…what is in that gap?
What has been the piece you have been saying needs to change?
Where is your standing water?
Maybe it’s been:
I need to learn a new skill
I need a way to quiet my mind
I need to organize my studio
I need to focus on one thing at a time
Or maybe, there is something TOXIC that is growing in the standing water and a part of your environment, and has been calling out to you that it’s harming you.
A partner who brings you down
Friends who shame you
A working environment that is literally unhealthy
Collaborators who don’t share your vision and cause you to compromise your Art again and again
When we take the moment to self connect, and stop judging the voices that are arising, we may find there is actual wisdom within.
We may find that the AC Unit is clearly saying,
Because, we can’t change what we can’t see.
There has to be an awareness first, and then we can take action.
And in this case, the action is to begin true self trust so that you can create a life and work that nourishes you.
The answers truly lie within, and somewhere deep inside is that voice that has been crying out for you.
The voice that has been crying out for your brilliance, and all you have to share with your Talents and Gifts.
Sometimes we need to hit the wall again and again to finally trust ourselves.
When we can trust and tap into our inner wisdom, we can then become truly Unstoppable.
So, tune in, and listen.
What do you hear?