9 Degrees of Separation

I’m staring at a giant monitor, my skull before me, at a sickening angle.

My chiropractor, Dr Imana, says,
I normally see this kind of deviation in whiplash patients.
You’re off by 9 degrees.

While I’m in shock at how misaligned my skull is from my neck, it is explaining why I’ve had such severe shoulder pain the last week.

But the word that is resonating like a tuning fork through my whole body, really makes the most sense….

Whiplash.

Dr. Imana looks at me with his caring eyes and says,
I also see this in my patients who have something really large happening in their life. So…what’s going on?

Oh……right…..this is making sense now.

 

What is your Creative Dream?
What is your Desired Vision?

Is it to:
Sell out Carnegie Hall
Be a NY Times Bestseller
Star on Broadway
Give a TED Talk
Have your Art Hang in the Metropolitan Museum
Win a Grammy

What drives your Process and feeds your Artistic Drive?

What is that vision, that if or when it comes true you will feel in your whole body and soul that you have ARRIVED?

We can spend so much time dreaming, and working, but what happens when it actually does come into our life?

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, Your playing small does not serve the world. As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people the permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
-Marianne Williamson

As Creatives, we can talk all we want about our Dreams, but when the spotlight is in front of us, how can we step in and actually be liberated? How do we fully make the impact we deeply desire?

It all comes down to one key element,

Alignment.

 

I look at Dr. Imana and smile,
I’m in love

And encapsulated in this is so many elements,
overcoming my fear of being hurt again
starting a new life partnership
moving out of my apartment

And ultimately forming a whole Creative life…one where I feel fulfilled in all areas.

All things I have been working towards, and wanting with my whole being, and here it is!

So, why was my neck so imbalanced?

Well…I’ve never been here before. 

The dream of Art that feeds me, work I love, a family and partnership that is deeply aligned with who I am as a woman today….this is all new.

At least, all of it together is new.
And it’s knocked me off my center.

Much like that roaring crowd waiting for you.

Are you aligned for the success you desire?

 

When I lay down for my adjustment, Dr Imana said,
I want you to think about this work as something we do together.  Place your attention on moving your skull center and open, center and open.

Once the adjustment was over, I felt as though a huge shift had occurred, and I was led to a dim room to relax with a guided meditation.  As soon as the headphones were placed on my ears, I began to cry.

Something was moving.

My neck was aligned, and now I could just freely flow.  My fear left my body, and I relaxed into the chair.

And a thought occurred to me,
This timing is perfect.

In order to welcome in all I desire, I need to be aligned for it.

My body had been sending me a clear message, and it was time to create new space; release the old fears, as they don’t serve me anymore.

Not for the life that is unfolding.

What about you?
What are you still holding on to?

 

So, how can you get aligned with your Dreams?

Take a moment right now, and grab a pen and paper.

Write down your Creative Vision, and then look at your actions towards them.  Take stock of your mindset, and your language. Look at your messaging, your collaborations, and habits.

Alignment: the proper adjustment of the components of a machine, circuit, etc., for coordinated functioning.

and

a state of agreement or cooperation among persons, groups, nations, etc., with a common cause or viewpoint.

We can so commonly get caught in believing we aren’t READY for success, but the answer may lie in whether or not we are ALIGNED.

This alignment begins WITHIN.

It begins with us, and then works it way out into our Art, and then connects with our audience.

Take a look at your paper, and see where the gaps are.

When we can release the judgment against ourselves, the answers come pretty easy.  And then the next step is just to ask for help.

I came to this new place with A LOT of help, and it was when I was willing to release the belief that I HAD to do it alone, that my business bloomed, and I was led to coaches and mentors and healers that have allowed me to create the life I want.

There’s been something holding you back for awhile, and today you have the opportunity to adjust.

Move Center and Open
Center and Open

Step into your light and align your life to SUPPORT that.

And then inspire your audience to do the same. Align with THEM, cooperate with what they need, and are clamoring for from you.

Align your Artistry with your Humanity, and your audience will follow suit.

This will create the deepest impact.

The success may feel like a whiplash, but it’s just the opportunity to create more space.

 

Who are you to be brilliant?
ALIGNED.

Thoracic Time

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Ice, heating pad, yoga mat.

I breathe in, slowly bringing my knee to my chest, exhaling on the count as I hold.

One, two, three, four, five.

I look up at my ceiling and slowly cross my knee to the opposing shoulder, feeling the cushion of my mat beneath, and placing my energy on my breath.

Both knees into my chest, and exhale, before repeating again the sequence from the beginning.

After raising slowly from the floor and rolling up my mat into a soft spiral, I grab my phone to check my email.

Subject line: “Ouch! The surprising reason for aches and pains.”

I smile, my arm automatically grazing my back in a moment of acknowledgement.

“Focus your attention on the sensation itself and offer a simple truth in the form of an ‘I notice’ statement.

Next, to recall the moment you remember first having the sensation, you will remember an incident that was in some way out of the ordinary, or that gave you pause.”

Intrigued, I set my phone down and sit, supported by the floor and the back of my chair.

I close my eyes, and breath in and out. In and out. Then I place my attention on the tension.

I notice there is a tight ball of tension in my mid back.

I then inquire when was the first time I felt this.

Suddenly I’m 12 again, and the incident washes over me, and then the tears are falling, falling, falling.

Oh….

 

I remember laying on my bed, in so much pain, face down.

I was scared, and confused.

Why did my back hurt so badly?

I hadn’t done anything out of the ordinary that day. My mother, equally confused and upset, scooped me up and we headed to the emergency room.

They did a full array of tests, checked me fully, and we waited for the answer.

The doctor came back and said nothing was wrong with me. All tests came back negative.

The diagnosis?

Growing pains.

But, it felt like my back was breaking…

 

In the coming months puberty hit, and I developed stretch marks across my hips and thighs.

In horror, I applied lotion every day, hoping somehow they would go away or fade.

My bones were growing faster than my skin and I watched the white striations form, becoming self conscious.

How did this look?

This did not fit in with my pink eyeshadow and perm.

The back pain subsided as quickly as it came on, and soon I was blowing out the thirteen candles on my cake, with one to grow on.

I had left adolescence and entered my teens.

What was I entering now?

 

Fingers wrapping around soft tissue, I wipe my eyes as I come back into the present moment, taking in my business vision board, upcoming projects, emails from my tribe, affirmations and a slow trail of rising incense.

All around me the evidence of forming the life I truly want, one I couldn’t imagine in the face of divorce two years ago; the community I have longed for.

It’s coming true, it’s becoming tangible, and in my back, right at the spine?

Fear.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.”Marianne Williamson

I found myself on the floor fully feeling all of it, allowing that while this is what I want, I’m scared.

And as I admitted this fear, I felt the ball of tension open.

The tight circle in the middle of my back began to widen, and release, as though a small drop had landed in the still waters.

I looked up from the floor to see a small spider relaxed in its web, illuminated by the morning light coming through my window.

Small Spider

I used to have terrible arachnophobia, I used to hate spiders, but after holding a tarantula in my hand two years ago, the prickly skin and desire to scream waned. The tarantula was actually very light and soft.

As was this moment.

July was a big month. I opened my show, I completed a coaching intensive, and I jumped out of a plane at 10,000 feet.

There was a lot of growth, and while I felt the joy of the expansion, there was also an element of responsibility, change, and hurdling through the air at 120 miles per hour.

In re-connecting with the scared 12 year old feeling the physical effects of her bones, I realized I’ve been here before.

Growth can hurt.

And, the pain relaxed with something really simple.

Acknowledgement.

 

Standing in my living room, I look at my cabinet, where the Louise Hay Power Thought card I pulled earlier is taped, so I have it as a reminder for my day.

As my back opens and I feel relief, I read the words again,

“I am in the process of positive change”

Positive Change

I believe those are birds she is creating.

Are you ready to fly?